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i decided to make a quick blogpost b4 muggin for my malay tmr
hmm, so far prep is ok, jus needa memorise everything now... haix
anyway today was boring as usual. started wif 5 hrs of malay lesson, then went to nea fair.
im reli gonna slack tmr la, im goin to go out to relax =]
eugene has been making these memos on fb, memos abt ppl. and i find it real meaningful. i think im goin to do it tmr. tmr night at least. of all my frens all compiled into one. think it would b great. reflective la, and for me to rmb and cry abt in future. omg i reli dont ever wan to leave these great frens of mine. high sch is so complete becoz of all these impt ppl. plz we mus stick together even in jc k.
sometimes i hate myself for thinking so much all the time... coz its reli all useless de... finding trouble for myself... but i guess, its thru these thinking, im beginning to see the bigger picture now... im no longer the old twex hu jus sees wads in front of him, for foreva thinking tat everythgin wil go my way, that everything is jus as innocent as it portrays itself to me... i understnad more now... mayb a bit too much... but its something ive gotta get pass rite. so better now then never... i cant believe the amt of regret, the amt of sorrow ive felt the past term. esp after exams tat period. did i reli leave it all behind. or will it folo me foreva and always? coz deep inside i cant gif it up? all ive concluded, is to attempt to throw everything away nw... to sepearate myself from wadeva jolts those memories... for its my own good rite? someone once told me, dont hurt urself, u deserve more than that. and i totally agree.
ok bac to muggin i guess, i shant emo no more. tat contradicts rite? haix.
oh yea, my old love for rihanna songs rekindled hahas, and over you by chris. hahas
and i luv my new iphone, i luc ebuddyin on the bus =]
i jus jolted a memory. haix.
signing off
twex
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
hmm ok today chi over... though haf quite a lot of mistakes le, still think can get a1 la... so now left wif malay to kope, i mus srsly hang in there la... too much temptations arnd me, everyone slackin liaoz... onli me haf to mug damn sianz, but i noe its for my own gd..yea nea fair operation mozzie onli gt merit, haiz... judges dont noe how to see a gd project la. so we gt 200 whole grp, 50 per pax... u noe hu got first? RI... zzz... so we went over to ask abt their project... apparently they cant answer my qn... so atrocious rite, and they gt 1st place, get 1k prize money,,but wadeva la, we r gonna own in fpsp, and go to US for competition, that is then an imba prize, mus work hard hor...hmm today E1-ers go to arnold huse, then was ebuddyin wif me on me iphone... haha, simply love iphone la, let me able to msn ppl even on the bus, reli convenient, srsly no regrets at all. damn happy wif it, can say its the 2nd most treasured material in my life. 1st was my mac. lol. supra damn happy wif itok nw watchin 7 and 9 o clock show, lol foloing a lot of series leh, ok bac to a bit of malay bahsianz diao, while others r slackin... zzz... everyone bu li wo :( too busy in their playgrnd... im negligible hor... heck la, after malay, im gonna put bac wad i missed.signing offtwex
Saturday, November 7, 2009
haix chi o lvl coming soon le... readin chi and memo-ing words and phrases nw... gettin to sianz..
anyway my crap old phone is bloody screwed. it cant transfer all my contacts to my sim card... damn... so nw ive to manually add in 250 contacts to my iphone... haix... worth it i guess
i reli dono wad to do... feel like emoing here la... haix. jus now when i found my ci yu shou ce, i found something within. it was a diary tat someone wrote for me when i was in beijing. haix... reli brings bac so much memories... to the 1st semester when we were tat close, lol rmbed the brothers thingy. was fun. was memorable.
hmm mus grab hold of alll the time ive in the hols, to catch up wif many. i dont wan to lose these precious frenships even though we r goin to jc. it shuld nt b a barrier.
ok bac to readin me chi, while listenin songs on my new iphone :D lols
signing off
twex
iphone
12:13 AMghahahahasha!!@!@! supra happy!@!#!@!@ finally gt me iphpone~!@!@!after waiting like 3 weeks over, finalyy gt it, wif the data plan haha.my mum keep on procrastinating but finally forced her to go get it. after such a long wait. at least its worth it la, 3 weeks to save 600 bucks., supra worth it..now i cant w8 til 10pm, when me iphone charge finish. then i will spam sms, spam call, spam dl apps, yeah!!@!2nd happiest day of my life, 1st was mac, 2nd was iphone, hmm 3rd would b wad new apple product hur...i wonder. :D
Friday, November 6, 2009
life as i know it...
2:56 AMi have no idea wad the heck im doin nowadays... i feel that my life, the life i once treasured, is totally ripped apart... so many things happened recently, things that ive been left out, things that ive been dao-ed for... things tat i reli wanted to join... but i chose to reject it? or do i even haf a chance to reject it? was i welcomed?i begin to realise im not been thankful for wad i had. and thus now it hurts when its all gone. ppl hu cherished me, i did nt reciprocate. yet i pin my energy on something which now ive realise theres no purpose in... ive been busy in project work... ive 2 o lvl papers to study for... and the ppl hu reli stand by me now, thanks. coz of my project work, im unable to attend the class chalet... do ppl understand? i reli wonder... or do ppl treat it as me bein an unsociable brat... someone hu shuns from all these activities... trust me, i do want to b there, if i was ther, would i b comfortable? life is nvr fair rite... ppl are nvr fair rite... ppl onli care for their own vested interest rite... ppl onli desire more, nvr less rite... ppl onli cherish wad they reli haf once its gone rite... why... i wanna go bac thru time. i reli cherish the times in sec4 semester 1... and since then, my life has undergone a parallel shift, and nw i realise im bac in square 1... recently i feel so damn bloody freakin lost... i dono wad to do... my emotions are gettin the better of me... i dont consider things anymore... and im hurting myself... something tat i shuld not b doing... i wan to start anew. i wan to relive the past. and tats something i aim to do thru the entire hols. sometimes its nt onli me, if the other side dont gif it a shot, dont try his best to make it a success, nth can ever b achieved. and this is something which i find trouble wif... breakin the barrier... in the first place, y is ther a barrier? societal pressure? underlying effects? sometimes being told direct is the best... although it hurts a lot, its onli short term, better than long term torture and distresshaix... ok im tired alr.signing offtwex
Thursday, October 29, 2009
crap results...
10:09 PMdid worst then expectedothers did better than expectedppl are happyppl are celebratingppl are enjoying and screaming awayppl are playin cards and enjoyin their time awaywhile some remain sad abt their msgdid worst than expectedthats wad tat hurts mostdid worst than one's expectationis the stab in the heartdo i even deserve to claim my iphone now?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
results...
10:29 PMas results are received, ive been receiving blows after blows... not up to standard... careless mistakes tat shuld not b made... half mark to nxt grade for many subjs... and im real pissed abt tat... papers i haf confidence in did nt do as well as expected...results... something so real and painful...and yet there are also other things hurtin me... life is nvr fair rite... life is jus so bloody unpredictable... seeing all my frens failing their expectations... and me2 bein helpless... hurts me double as much... life is jus so unfair... and i hate it...emo... hatred...who dosent lone for someone to hold, hu noes how to love u without being told, somebody tell me why im alone now... if there is a soulmate for everyone.signing offtwex